No, he can't read my poker face
Thursday, October 16, 2008
6:55 PM
these few days i realli not feeling very good.
wed was supposed to meet wk early to study, 2-3 got focus but,
he dint tell me wad time r we supposed to meet so since there no school i would definity wake up late.
on tat day i woke up at 10. its early for me OKAY. zzzz
den saw his sms so i replied him.
den i brush teeth, which nids 30mins cuz im used to brush 10 times on 2 tooth ( learn tis from pri school).
i heard my fone ringing so while brushing i sms bak, wait ahh..
den in the end i reach dere ard 11 and of course cant study much.
i noe its my fault but how i noe wad time r we supposed to meet rite?
i dint even noe the time how am i supposed to wake up?
i met him and he gave a bu shuang lookssss all the way.
and the previous day i had vomit, diarrhea, wasnt feeling well so a lil moody.
i realli noe its partially my fault but HE OSO BEARS SOME LA PLS.
wth la. i talk to him and he gave ans like very wad la..
i totallly pissed off by him la, as if my fault onli. zzz
in the beginning i edi tell him i dun love him and doesnt wan any relationship and i realli hope he can leave me alone.
i realli duno how reject ppl when they ask..
cuz i noe asking ppl out nid some courage too.. so if i reject i would feel terribly bad la..
i doesnt wan to fwen him anymore and doesnt wan to go out wid him anymore. i swear.
i told him i wanna go home den he was like.. " huh" with an stupid and not happi look
i REALLI COULD NOT STAND WID HIM LA.. i oways had tolerated him.
on my way to school, i reali feel angry & stupid for making myself to bear wid him and even go out wid him la. den i kip tinking about it and.. i cried.
thou i realli have not lost my patience but i couldnt stand it la..
juz hate it la. NB LA.
on account on previous effort he put, i beared wid him and dun wann fwen him(silent break)
otherwise i would him juz shout at him at the top of my voice and hab a clean break.
thinking bout it and EVEN typing tis post angered me.
tis shall be the last time i will mention him.
wed was supposed to meet wk early to study, 2-3 got focus but,
he dint tell me wad time r we supposed to meet so since there no school i would definity wake up late.
on tat day i woke up at 10. its early for me OKAY. zzzz
den saw his sms so i replied him.
den i brush teeth, which nids 30mins cuz im used to brush 10 times on 2 tooth ( learn tis from pri school).
i heard my fone ringing so while brushing i sms bak, wait ahh..
den in the end i reach dere ard 11 and of course cant study much.
i noe its my fault but how i noe wad time r we supposed to meet rite?
i dint even noe the time how am i supposed to wake up?
i met him and he gave a bu shuang lookssss all the way.
and the previous day i had vomit, diarrhea, wasnt feeling well so a lil moody.
i realli noe its partially my fault but HE OSO BEARS SOME LA PLS.
wth la. i talk to him and he gave ans like very wad la..
i totallly pissed off by him la, as if my fault onli. zzz
in the beginning i edi tell him i dun love him and doesnt wan any relationship and i realli hope he can leave me alone.
i realli duno how reject ppl when they ask..
cuz i noe asking ppl out nid some courage too.. so if i reject i would feel terribly bad la..
i doesnt wan to fwen him anymore and doesnt wan to go out wid him anymore. i swear.
i told him i wanna go home den he was like.. " huh" with an stupid and not happi look
i REALLI COULD NOT STAND WID HIM LA.. i oways had tolerated him.
on my way to school, i reali feel angry & stupid for making myself to bear wid him and even go out wid him la. den i kip tinking about it and.. i cried.
thou i realli have not lost my patience but i couldnt stand it la..
juz hate it la. NB LA.
on account on previous effort he put, i beared wid him and dun wann fwen him(silent break)
otherwise i would him juz shout at him at the top of my voice and hab a clean break.
thinking bout it and EVEN typing tis post angered me.
tis shall be the last time i will mention him.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
1:42 AM
I missed him alot alot alotalott!!
howw!?!?
i donno what to do..
i couldnt forget about him!
he totally doesnt want to tok to me and he ignored me after the breakup.
IM EXTREMELY UPSET ):
it like the glass shatters into uncountable pieces.
i miss him alot.
i love him even more.
and he doesnt give a damn abt me.
im realli realli very sad..
im crying. i doesnt want any1 to know.
i .. am.. realli sadddsaddddd
i see no meaning in my life... i wan to get tis over.
but i cant. ):
he kips coming in and out of my mind...
i tink of him whenever i go.
i hate to do this, its like im despo fer him.
but.. i juz misses him alot..
i realli hope he could at least sae a hi to me.. juz a simple hi
but its totally impossible. he had clean forgotten me for he had del mahh every trace.
T_T
thou he had been unfaithful to me, i dun care but just kinda disappointed.
i saw him smiled happily with his gf and seemed like dhey had fun, my heaart shattered..
he didnt tell me he had another 1 but he admits after i asked umpteen times.
den he explained i had oways ignored him, filled with guys all ard me and he felt tat i doesnt love him anymore.
wad excuses lo.. i admit i ignored him but.. ok fine..
tat time my mind was super confused lurhhs thus doesnt wan tuhh tok to him but nbms..
i noe the break brings both of us good and i noe we couldnt continue anymore..
but i still love him..
i tink.. i should gib up and let go..
but how.. i realli dun wan to grab on tightly any more..
i nid special motivation. jus plainly supports from my fwens wun do..
i guess i'll have to wait till i meet another who can touches my heart.
howw!?!?
i donno what to do..
i couldnt forget about him!
he totally doesnt want to tok to me and he ignored me after the breakup.
IM EXTREMELY UPSET ):
it like the glass shatters into uncountable pieces.
i miss him alot.
i love him even more.
and he doesnt give a damn abt me.
im realli realli very sad..
im crying. i doesnt want any1 to know.
i .. am.. realli sadddsaddddd
i see no meaning in my life... i wan to get tis over.
but i cant. ):
he kips coming in and out of my mind...
i tink of him whenever i go.
i hate to do this, its like im despo fer him.
but.. i juz misses him alot..
i realli hope he could at least sae a hi to me.. juz a simple hi
but its totally impossible. he had clean forgotten me for he had del mahh every trace.
T_T
thou he had been unfaithful to me, i dun care but just kinda disappointed.
i saw him smiled happily with his gf and seemed like dhey had fun, my heaart shattered..
he didnt tell me he had another 1 but he admits after i asked umpteen times.
den he explained i had oways ignored him, filled with guys all ard me and he felt tat i doesnt love him anymore.
wad excuses lo.. i admit i ignored him but.. ok fine..
tat time my mind was super confused lurhhs thus doesnt wan tuhh tok to him but nbms..
i noe the break brings both of us good and i noe we couldnt continue anymore..
but i still love him..
i tink.. i should gib up and let go..
but how.. i realli dun wan to grab on tightly any more..
i nid special motivation. jus plainly supports from my fwens wun do..
i guess i'll have to wait till i meet another who can touches my heart.
Friday, October 10, 2008
9:50 PM
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
7:45 AM
dere are alot mroe pages, lazy scan all hehehees! =x
& this is der card,
anyhow scan 1, actual card not so rectangular LOL =/
